With a new year right around the corner, and a moment to finally breathe as this month’s holiday madness winds down, I’m struck by how quickly so much has changed in our lives during 2012. I’m reminded of a book I read, probably around ten years ago, that emphasized the importance of recognizing the small details that make up our lives. Looking back, I realize that these precious, small details are what have made this year special, creating memories that I hope to cherish forever.
My daughter’s existence has made every day exciting and exhausting. 2012 kicked off with worries that I would never sleep or eat normally again, but I soon discovered that those fears paled in comparison to baby girl’s new dance moves, the kisses she plants on my cheeks, and the “hug mommy” she needlessly demands.
At brunch with friends recently, I was stunned to realize that I was actually able to sit and chat with other adults without breaking into sheer panic as she wandered around and played nearby. I’m still savoring that small, wonderful detail.
Of course, reminders of how far we’ve come are alway there, popping up when they are least expected. Just the other evening, after making Cinnamon Sugar Roasted Butternut Squash Stuffed with Cranberry Risotto, I was preparing our plates when my sweet foodie insisted on being in my arms, wailing if I even tried to sit down with her in my lap. As we were both tired and hungry, I stood with her in the kitchen, feeding the both of us over the kitchen sink.
This really amused her, and I soon caught her contagious grin. It was if we were sharing an inside joke about this throwback to our early days together, when “dinner” was me standing in the kitchen, holding a fussy baby, while cramming food into my mouth as fast as I could.
I thank God for the simple beauty of that shared moment, and also that we have once again returned to sitting while eating. These milestones, and many more, have made this the hardest and most blessed year of my life. I’m excited to see what challenges and fun 2013 will bring to our table. Happy New Year.